You know when you see people doing good things for each other and it makes you smile, but it doesn't really touch you? I mean, you recognize it as a good gesture, but that's not something you yourself would particularly enjoy receiving. You'd rather get something else, but you don't know what that "something" is...?
I'm stuck like that with life in general. I have little motivation specifically because of that.
I feel like I could do pretty much anything for the world but I don't really care about doing anything specific. I think I need help figuring out what I could actually care about.... like, everyone has problems everywhere sure; but why help one group over another? I don't feel attached to any cause or solving any problem in the world. I've overcome most of my own problems alone, there was never anyone to really help me, so I don't feel like "giving back" what I never received in the first place (there's nothing for me to give).
I don't particularly want to make the world a better place just for the sake of it... I want to feel some attachment, some involvement with what I'm going to do. So "volunteering at XYZ" place doesn't work unless I know I care about that place or that goal before going.
I know that everyone has an opinion about how I should just "care more", but this is the truth: I don't. I don't see why I should, and people's opinions on whether that makes me "good" or "bad" don't interest or affect me.
I would like to contribute, but only if I can figure out what I personally care about (not what everyone tells me I should care about).
Anyone else succeeded at this?
I have very little motivation at the moment because of this issue and don't know anyone who has a similar experience. And yes if it helps I am recovering from depression.
Submitted September 30, 2017 at 01:22PM by WalkingCPU http://ift.tt/2hCwN0o
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